J-Lo talks about her secret nervous breakdown

Posted by heatworld on Wednesday 08 Oct 2008

Filed under: Jennifer Lopez

Jennifer Lopez has always seemed like one of the most calm and composed stars around, but she’s just revealed that all of her hard work lead to a nervous breakdown when she was filming Enough in 2002. “I was doing music and movies and so many things,” she says. “I was suffering from a lack of sleep. And I did have a kind of nervous breakdown. I froze up on set. Well, not on a set, but in my trailer. I was like – I don't want to move, I don't want to talk, I don't want to do anything. I had a nervous breakdown.” She also says that the episode was particularly scary because it came completely out of the blue. “There were no signs leading up to it,” she reveals. “You really don't know what's happening at first. I was going, 'what's going on?' It was about five in the afternoon in my trailer and I just sat there. I remember telling my assistant at the time – Arlene – to go get the director Michael Apted and I asked if I could go home because I was feeling so, so sick and weird. I kept saying, 'I'm not weak, I'm not weak.' It's funny what tricks your mind play on you. I just didn't want people to think I was falling apart. But when I look back on it now, it's so odd to me that those are the words I chose to say: I Am Not Weak.” A sobbing J-Lo was then carried to her car by her bodyguard – but when she was taken to her doctor, she refused medication. “I just kept asking what was wrong with me,” she says. “The doctor said ‘I'll tell you what's wrong. You're sleep deprived. You're overworked. Go home and go to bed.' He told me to go back to work on Monday after a weekend of sleeping because if I waited longer I would only get more panicked about working. So that's what I did. I've still never been to a shrink. I'm not a shrinky person.” Gosh, we’re amazed that she’s been so very candid – aren’t you?